Musings of a treasure Huntress

What's your Christmas wish..?

2011-12-06T12:23:00.001-08:00

I'm a lucky gal. I have 3 great kids, a great boyfriend, a house, loving family..so much to be grateful for. In this season of giving, I'm thinking about what can't be given. I'm thinking about my hearts wish. My heart wants to be fed creatively again. Think I just might take some night classes in writing, photography or dance maybe even. My heart does also long for a daughter. I have 3 handsome boys and no one to pass my heirlooms too, no one to share my girly heart with..so that's my Christmas wishing. What's yours?

Blonde Episodes: Fabulous Celebration Giveaway!

2011-05-31T17:50:00.000-07:00

Blonde Episodes: Fabulous Celebration Giveaway!

My girlfriend has a fabulous blog and a book I'm trying to win- check it out!!

New Year, New Love, New Life!

2011-01-05T13:11:00.000-08:00

Fresh starts feel good. The promise of hope and something new. In my life, timing has always been unexpected. When the whole world is going through seemingly tough times, I fall in love.
The kind of love, I've only heard about. The kind of love that can last forever.
So, I'm filled with new years happiness.
I don't know why it took me till 34 yrs old but, I'm guessing I had to learn a lot.
My resolution for 2011 is to let nothing get in the way of this new.
Happy New Year!!

Samson by Regina Spektor

2010-12-16T21:49:00.000-08:00

Hover

2010-09-11T12:57:00.001-07:00

Today I will tell you love me or leave.

These things do not take time, make up your mind.

Cause I won't share a bed with a foe any mo.

I had to move a boulder called fear to get me to here and there's no stopping now, les the boulder move back down.

So on forward I go, with or without you I don't know.

One thing is for certain, I'm over the hurtin and if you can't keep to that then I guess it's goodbye.

You had your chance, so did I.

Last Race

2010-08-16T17:10:00.000-07:00

Can you feel the reigns are loosening, this old race horse is limping, time to put her to rest.

Hard to imagine there's no more fight left but, the weakness, you can't deny.

So, let's send her off well, there's no reason to yell.

It was somethin to watch.

My manifesto

2010-05-18T10:17:00.000-07:00

I am a contributor to the world
I believe in personal freedom
When I was little I was super sensitive and afraid
Right Now I am stronger than I could have ever imagined
I love my family and friends more than anything
What I know for sure is that we are all connected by energy
I've never been more happy then when I'm watching my kids have fun and laughing with my old friends
I have a penchant for partying and having a good time
I wish all of us could be with the loves of our lives
I dream of owning a 2nd house (somewhere beautiful) where my friends/ family could visit anytime and write messages in a journal left there.
People tell me I am a wild woman
I was born to be bold in thought, action and speech
I am particularly good at saying what nobody wants to
What I want most in this world is to make a difference by making changes
I was a WILD teenager
I indulge in my love life
The words I hold closest to my heart I love you and no regrets
If I get a chance I will write a book
I live for the real story
I believe the most important thing in a person is to be THEMSELVES
I have an amazing family
If I had a superpower it would be to heal
I hail to God= love= higher than things of this world
The big idea of my life is to pass the family history and make a new song

When Life Hands You Lemons

2009-08-11T11:16:00.000-07:00

It has been a rough summer for me. My new husband and I are calling it quits, not for lack of love but for the best of the children and therefore ourselves.
Then my 11 year old Dalmation Delilah died in the home. She had been my practice for having kids- my oldest kid really, now gone..
Then on July 31st the passing of my dear uncle Walter. He was the 3rd born of 10 kids and the 1st to pass. Needless to say, July sucked major for me.
As I experienced grief, the emotions and thoughts that come with it; I couldn't help but feel inspired.
See, after experiencing death in front of you~ there is an awakening.
We can bond and grow in the fact that there is so much we have no control over.
As I was reminded of this, a feeling of humility came over me.
In the day to day superficialities we can often lose sight of what's important.
Often, things go un-nurtured and forgotten about.
When losing someone you love, there is re-evaluation of these things.
Every time I was overwhelmed by grief, I had to smile with gratitude for knowing them.
Living beings are not inanimate. They cannot be destroyed. It brought much comfort to me, thinking about the spirit as something eternal.
I could experience the closeness of my dearly departed through memory, to be reunited one day in spirit.
I know, some people struggle more with this than others.
From the song Life is Sweet by my favorite Natalie Merchant she sings:
They told you life is hard
Misery from the start, it's dull
It's slow, it's painful
But I tell you life is sweet
In spite of the misery
There's so much more, be grateful.
Well, who do you believe
Who will you listen to, who will it be
Because it's high time that you decide
In your own mind.
That, so much more she's talkin about, I interpret to be our amazing, universal connection.
Beauty we can take hold of, at any given moment, just breathing.
Resting humbly in our knowledge of being part of something so much bigger.
So, here's my drop in the ocean.
An output of positivity during a negative experience.
A brief example of turning things around and making the best of it.
When the storm comes and you feel alone, know that you're part of something incredible.

3 Questions:

2009-07-20T13:45:00.000-07:00

What brings me joy?
I must admit that the "highest" I have ever felt, is during praise worship. There's something about voices in unison for the glory of God. Whatever you feel about God; the power can be proved by the feeling experienced in worship. In attempt to describe this: it's like being free- mind, body and spirit. Completely in the moment and therefore elevated out of present time and circumstance. It's the letting go of all past and future~ a consecrated action. At these moments I experience joy in it's purest form. Of course, many other things bring me joy.. My dearest friends, in our intimate conversation. Children in their honesty and integrity. This picture:) To name a few..
When do I feel the best in me shine?
When I'm fearless! Sometimes life attempts to bring you down. I must admit, that I spent many years without the key to my own shackles. When I discovered that fear was holding me back and the key to being free was fearlessness, it changed my life. No longer encumbered by my own doubt and insecurity, I could conquer anything! Only then could I truly shine. When I give now, from my free and open self- I shine! Passing on the fearless energy and thereby empowering others to be free.
Why do I get up in the morning?
Because it's a new day that I want to be a part of.
Because it's exciting to unravel the mysteries of life!
Because life and the world we live in, is full of wonder, beauty and art.
And I don't want to miss out!
Now go on, what are your answers??

Declaration of purpose

2009-07-14T23:10:00.000-07:00

Who am I?
I'm a unique individual that's not afraid to walk to the beat of her own drum. I'm a fighter for my place in the world, for my right to be respected and for those who may not be able to fight for themselves. I'm a mother of boys; the kind that are growing into leaders, not followers and I'm not afraid to take some credit for it. I'm a woman, one who has fallen and learned along the way- ever stronger, ever braver, ever wiser. I'm a natural salesman, (as you can see from my early days) always loved to perform, network and speak up- it's in the genes..
Who was I at 6?
A daydreamer with a wild imagination. I believed that I would be a famous entertainer and yet, I was painfully more shy than, anyone who knows me now, would imagine. Back then, my performing was behind closed doors to Annie on record. Back then, when I was asked what I wanted to be, I said a singer- nothings changed :)
What I really want, is to be an inspiration to others. I want to make a difference in the world. I want to be bold in thought, action and spirit. I want to challenge myself and others, through my example.
What's your declaration of purpose?

My Flickr Mosaic

2009-03-21T23:09:00.000-07:00

The love in my heart

2009-02-14T09:30:00.000-08:00

We were meant to be.
Thank you for what you've done to my life.
You make me a better person every day.
My world is filled with tears, smiling to myself and frustration.
I wouldn't change a thing.
You are from me but not of me.
I'm continually amazed at what you teach me.
Thank you for your example of unending love.
There is always a plate of food, a hug or kiss (depending), a story, my time- for you

Me and Archie Griffin

2008-10-07T11:00:00.000-07:00

Recently I got to visit Ohio for the 1st time.
I went to an Ohio State football game and got to meet the legendary, 2 time Heisman trophy winning- Archie Griffin. He was a really sweetheart of a guy and he signed a magazine for me, (during a OSU touchdown no less!) I wasn't much of a sports fan but, I gotta say after attending the Buckeyes "Skull Session" that all changed. A nostalchick girl like me thoroughly enjoyed the brass band with it's lively drum major. It was a visual romance for me sitting there in the old St. John Arena listening to real music. What can I say, I'm now a fan. I KNOW, it just aint right for a West Coaster to be a fan of a Pack 10 team! I've never been one to follow others anyway ;)

Welcome to my Blog life!

2008-09-29T09:38:00.000-07:00

So I got back last night from Ohio and woke up to So. Cal rain. Right out my door there's a rainbow. I can't help but be inspired and cheered by this beautiful sky spectiCAL and I decide to finally start a blog. Writing is my passion, reading is one of my loves and I might as well jump on the proverbial bandwagon!
So here's to someone else's nonsense and makes sense.
Nostalchicks rainbow :)